The Makings Of Me.

Today is my 27th birthday and I feel like I have nothing to show for the 27 years I've been on this earth. But at the same time I have a good amount of reasons to be thankful for every year spent on this beautiful colorful earth. 10 years ago today, I turned 17 years old and a totally different woman sits here today typing this. I always wish I could afford the luxury of time traveling since the present isn't always as jubilant as my teenager years were but GOD knows my days now have more meaning than my 17 year old self could have ever imagined. Through triumph and terror one thing has always remained over the years... that tomorrow presents a new opportunity, new chances, and alternatives. These are 27 lifestyle choices that I want to master: 27 1) Stop feeding dead relationships or friendships. A lot of characters get written off or die. It's ok if the people that started out don't fit in your story anymore. 2) Stop being indecisive when it comes to what you...

I've learned vulnerability is a good thing. I'm about to be exceptionally vulnerable in this post that is long over-due.  As of late, it takes a simple read of a text message to trigger the release of tears from my lacrimal apparatus .  These times are hard and trying for a lot of us.  All around the world.  Life sucks. Let me rephrase that, the living conditions people are experiencing suck.  I'm saddened to admit this post was not a direct result of the evil and inhumanity, illustrated in the media taken place around this country. This post alone was all fueled by heartbreak, disappointment and pain that a handful of my loved ones are dealing with. Both privately and openly.  Setbacks that are caused by: Health. Money. Stress. Shortcomings.  Struggles of all kinds: Lack of love, understanding, acc eptance and support.  And the ongoing battle of developing, attaining and creati...

You've got to love yourself on purpose and love yourself first. You can't feel disconnected from yourself. And you certainly have to work for everything you want out of the relationship with yourself. It's Quality over quantity. How well you polish your mirror will reflect the amount of happiness you feel. The amount of time you dedicate to creating your own happiness will increase your probability to creating the future you want for yourself. You're going to be you forever so why not treat you good. Create something amazing for her, give her something to look forward to, give her something to be proud of. Give her something that makes her feel complete. Be meticulous to her mind, body and soul. Fall deeply in love with her. Spend the rest of your life with her and not disconnected from her.  the most important relationship to perfect, is the one with yourself.. Don't be afraid to be alone... It makes you stronger. 

The past few weeks I've been residing in foreign countries, and experiencing encounters with humans that I believe were angels. I've began to embrace a vulnerable version of myself and with the changes I've started to view the world differently. I think I might be gravitating towards a new life or something. In 2014 I wanted to leave behind a certain part of myself. I wasn't satisfied with her performance so I had to bench her for a while and work on her skill. We're both trying and we're pushing. Progress is being made and we are getting closer and closer to our goal and ultimately the end result. Action is key to this lifestyle.  The more we practice the more we experience that pleasure of life. That life is forbidden in the past and the future. You must be present. It's a life with lights, a camera, and plenty of action , A life where you're financially, mentally and emotionally free-- it's a life that YOU control. A life where kindness is the l...

In recent events, following the murder of Michael Brown, a piece of my peace has been crumbled. Michael Brown, an unarmed, 18 year old college student was scheduled to begin his freshman year at Vatterott College. Unfortunately, he didn't make it to his first day of classes. On August 9th, 2014 Michael was gunned down in the streets of Ferguson Missouri by police officer Darren Wilson. His body left to lay there in the blistering heat for for hours. Wilson, shot his gun at Michael a dozen of times, hitting Brown six times, two in the head. With little to no regard for the human value of Michael Brown the law enforcement officer took the precious, unwritten, young life of a 18 year old teenage boy as if his life had little to no value.  This happened. It's been heavily publicized through every single device of mass media, since. The recorded gunshots, multiple stories false accusations, subconscious racism, pictures, endless footage, and a transparent glimpse into t...

The world is controlled by two forces. The highest of the two being a positive energy of GOD, Compassion, and LOVE. The other being the complete opposite; utterly evil, destructive and hateful, better known as The Devil. I grew up being extremely familiar with the opposing side due to my elementary school fame... I can remember countless times where I was the cause of someone crying at recess because I excluded them from whatever girl group, club or gang my friends and I had formed at lunch earlier that day. The Spice Girls were usually who we strolled around Recess pretending to be. But looking back I realize we were more like Destiny's Child due to the fact the revolving door was always open. I was Beyonce though, so I did the kicking out and the replacing. Always. I was one of three black girls in my entire school so I was different and people admired that. Innocent souls admire the significant things in life. Unfortunately back then I let the hype go to my head and an EGO ...

It's been exactly 3 months since I've publicly written . In the missed time I've been doing some soul searching, soul recovering and soul spoiling. When I say soul [searching], I'm referring to searching for more wisdom and truth from what I've already been so enriched with within this short but precious lifetime of mines. The soul recovering I speak of is in reference to the refocus, and revamping of my purpose I've been diligently working on since-- what felt like the Coldest Winter Ever ended. Saving the best for last, the soul spoiling I mentioned was said modestly yet wholeheartedly in regards to the decisions, power moves, and progress I've made with awareness, peace and love; which has entirely been a motivating factor in bringing me closer to GOD, UNIVERSE, SPIRIT, HEAVEN, PEACE, LOVE, etc. than I've ever been before. I'll keep it real because we all deserve REAL: This past winter after returning from Africa, I never really readjusted to...

I experienced life on a deeper [higher] level today . After working two jobs a week straight, I was fortunate to  finally make it home before the sun went down. On my way home a thought entered my head to not just go in the house and stay in once I arrived, but to enjoy the weather and soak the good temperatures in. Right then, I decided I would go visit the local park not far from my house. I always breath a little easier when I spend time at the park. Along with clearer breathing, my thoughts are much more clear as well. So then I decided I would write in the midst of fresh air, children playing, and the rest of the components that make this life the beautiful experience that it should be: I'm currently sitting on a bridge at Wheaton Regional Park watching children enjoy some of the most pleasurable, carefree-- possibly happiest moments of their lives. The joy I'm feeling at this very moment is incredible, as I watch these tiny humans truly experience life for what it is. ...

A couple of weeks ago I began reading this incredible novel titled 'Men, Money, and Chocolate' by Menna Van Pragg. I saw great reviews for it on Amazon and decided to order it. By my luck it ended up being exactly what I needed to read at the right time. I've devoted the last year and a half to reading books that ONLY relate to self-improvement because of my journey that I've embarked on. However this read specifically had the second biggest impact on my life as far as relevancy goes. The author of this book masterminded the technique of putting life experiences into words that are beneficial to every human being, especially those of us that are experiencing stressful relationships that seem to no longer be serving a purpose in our lives. I personally believe this book was written for and about me. Within the short amount of time that I've been reading this book, I've learned some seriously valuable life lessons-- Lessons that need to stick with me for the rest ...

Lately my life has been lacking a sense of rejuvenation. I experience some days that are productive and others not so much. I'm constantly trying to work towards living the life I want to live instead of being satisfied with the life I'm living. It's almost as if nothing is ever enough. I'm pretty sure as a child life never seemed this complex . I can refer to a book I'm currently reading titled " Men, Money and Chocolate " to support my claim: "We're born with hearts that hold onto our dreams, keeping them safe from our negative rational minds. As children we follow our hearts all day long; we live according to our instincts and intuitions. But one day we stop listening to our hearts and start listening to the thoughts in our heads instead".  My life made so much more sense the short 2 weeks I was in Ghana. Like WOW. I had never felt so connected to my life in the 23 years I've lived it. My entire thought process converted over ...