Caffeinate your spirit.

I've learned vulnerability is a good thing. I'm about to be exceptionally vulnerable in this post that is long over-due. 

As of late, it takes a simple read of a text message to trigger the release of tears from my lacrimal apparatus. 

These times are hard and trying for a lot of us. 
All around the world. 

Life sucks.

Let me rephrase that, the living conditions people are experiencing suck. 

I'm saddened to admit this post was not a direct result of the evil and inhumanity, illustrated in the media taken place around this country.

This post alone was all fueled by heartbreak, disappointment and pain that a handful of my loved ones are dealing with. Both privately and openly. 

Setbacks that are caused by:

Health. Money. Stress. Shortcomings. 

Struggles of all kinds: Lack of love, understanding, acceptance and support. 
And the ongoing battle of developing, attaining and creating our own perception of happiness. 

I know that with age life becomes more challenging because the rewards grow more grander, but I feel as if I'm running out of time to be rewarded. I feel like my loved ones are as well. I feel like we all are.

I know patience is a virtue and I know through storm and sun life has endless blessings to offer up but I think because of life's indifference, we are being robbed of our right to do way more with our lives than just survive. 

It's like we are disconnected from our energy source because all we hear is the voice of fear, bill collectors, horrible bosses, and other energy draining sources of negativity offering us cheap validation for why our living conditions suck.

I trust in the Universes timing, but not the timing of man.

So I want to channel the source energy that helps me create a beautifully designed life for myself, my loved ones and my community. 

I have been undervaluing the love of Family, friends, GOD and self because I've been too busy trying to survive. 

Forced happiness is very real. I think I've felt less than full for a while now. The highs come and go, but the lows are more natural and appealing to my living conditions.

I'm not trying to live like this anymore, and I'm damn sure not trying to allow my family and friends to either. 

FUCK THIS SHIT. 

We have to set the tone of our lives and look to our higher selves because life's fuck-boy tendencies will only continue to leave us feeling emotionally drained and powerless. 

Invisible humans in our heads, news coverage, greedy corporations and just plain sucky people have too much control over our self-fulfilling prophecy.  

We are capable of so much. We have to focus our attention on creating compassion out of anger, hope out of fear and and love out of hate. 

The key to getting this thing called life right, is looking for GOD in every situation and experience, while STILL steering the wheel to our lives in a positive direction. 

everyone's going through it. but we don't have to, and if your circumstances are more strain than others, you damn sure don't have to go through it alone.

until the next time.

PEACE. LOVE, and so much JOY.