The Makings Of Me.

No One Can Ruin Your Day Without Your Permission. This statement is absolutely true because we make our own decisions and choices as distinct individuals. Allowing someone else to ruin your day is simply allowing someone else to live your life. All to often does this happen because we allow others negative energy to influence how we go about our every day lives. For example... It's a bright sunny Monday morning and things are going right as I'm on my way to work. I'm excited because i know it's a short work week and i know i have some great events planned for the weekend. Well, I get to work and my boss is on a complete rampage because she had a terrible weekend. So she is defensively trying to rain on everyone Else's parade because she isn't happy. Therefore she comes down on me because she notices I'm in high spirits and of course Misery Loves Company. So working an 8-hour shift with her she finds every way possible to aggravate and annoy me causing ...

This past week has been exhausting . I'm completely drained. I haven't felt this alone in quite sometime. It's as if I'm isolated from the rest of the world. I don't want to go out and do too much; i don't want to be around too many people and i don't look forward to much either. I find myself crying a lot more and smiling alot less. I'm emotionally burned out & My hours seem like days. They say " Time Heals Pain " --- but exactly what time zone do you have to be in for that to happen? Things havn't gotten any easier. I've learned to act like they have but it's still the same ol' thing. I feel soo deprived; i feel empty inside & its this thing i feel like i'm missing and can't let go.. There's Got to be soo much more to life.. Life is too short to be anything but happy; but i'm stuck searching for happiness because it's not in reaching distance. I Want, I Hope, I Pray , I Wish, I Dream BUT i GET ...